Breath with me

Another moment of surrender, to my loving God, my higher power, my universe. I sat today in an empty parking lot, tears forming in my eyes, with my own defamation of character and the wanting to just hide. Where does this come from? I have so much to be grateful for. I lost a dear friend today, not to the heavens but to his own self-will. The realization is, was this friend really a friend? What went so wrong that the need emerged to remove me from life. I owned this behavior, I blamed myself, I allowed myself to wallow in self-pity and remorse. What I could have done differently? Then the tools began to shine, from the knowledge of the love, from my own reflection of past experiences; this is not mine to own. These thoughts are formed from a deep fear of rejection and the need for acceptance. I turned to google: Lecrae says, "You live for their acceptance, you die from their rejection." Yes! My dear friend tells me to remember that the Universe gives us what we need at exactly the right time. This couldn't be more true. The week was a reflection of self-compassion.