A recent Monday night was the holder of a beautiful lesson of the wave of emotions that will offer me a new pair of glasses to see that I am growing. To make a long story short I was victim of an act of immaturity that brought anger, sadness, fear of not being safe and revenge to my present state of awareness. I was hurt by the act of another human being that immediately created a need for ill-will, revenge and an obsessing array of thoughts of how I will get back at this person for making me feel this way. Let me tell you that my old patterns of behavior were on a rampage. I recall this gut wrenching feeling that was powerful, all-consuming and sickening. All I could do was sit and manifest these thoughts into my next move. Then a light of understanding covered my entire Being. I sat in silence with my feelings and began to reflect on what was really happening. This act of stupidity was not a reflection of me, I did not create this hostility in my life and what I've learned is that the only thing I can control is my response to such things. This person is a beautiful soul who means no harm and I clearly know that he did not sit in contemplation on how he would hurt me. I was all of a sudden NOT attached to the situation at hand but rather in contemplation as to what my part of it was and the lesson I was to learn. Love is an energy that flows all around us, we merely push it from one to another. It was now my understanding that rather to find a way to hurt this individual, I would love him even more. I would meditate the energy of love to him, all around him and for him. We are all in a personal state of awareness and the actions that we proclaim are a direct result of that awareness. Some of us are farther along in the process, but that makes us no better. God's plan is not for us to understand, but to have faith in knowing that it is for the best. For me I must remember that I never lose, I either win or I learn. What I have learned from this process is that I am a child of God, and that I walk with my brothers and sisters. I have a purpose to respond to the Universe in a loving and purposeful way and to be of Service, even to those who may harm me. Namaste.
Friday, December 5, 2014
Revenge as my Teacher
A recent Monday night was the holder of a beautiful lesson of the wave of emotions that will offer me a new pair of glasses to see that I am growing. To make a long story short I was victim of an act of immaturity that brought anger, sadness, fear of not being safe and revenge to my present state of awareness. I was hurt by the act of another human being that immediately created a need for ill-will, revenge and an obsessing array of thoughts of how I will get back at this person for making me feel this way. Let me tell you that my old patterns of behavior were on a rampage. I recall this gut wrenching feeling that was powerful, all-consuming and sickening. All I could do was sit and manifest these thoughts into my next move. Then a light of understanding covered my entire Being. I sat in silence with my feelings and began to reflect on what was really happening. This act of stupidity was not a reflection of me, I did not create this hostility in my life and what I've learned is that the only thing I can control is my response to such things. This person is a beautiful soul who means no harm and I clearly know that he did not sit in contemplation on how he would hurt me. I was all of a sudden NOT attached to the situation at hand but rather in contemplation as to what my part of it was and the lesson I was to learn. Love is an energy that flows all around us, we merely push it from one to another. It was now my understanding that rather to find a way to hurt this individual, I would love him even more. I would meditate the energy of love to him, all around him and for him. We are all in a personal state of awareness and the actions that we proclaim are a direct result of that awareness. Some of us are farther along in the process, but that makes us no better. God's plan is not for us to understand, but to have faith in knowing that it is for the best. For me I must remember that I never lose, I either win or I learn. What I have learned from this process is that I am a child of God, and that I walk with my brothers and sisters. I have a purpose to respond to the Universe in a loving and purposeful way and to be of Service, even to those who may harm me. Namaste.
Monday, December 1, 2014
What does music do for me? As the universe selects the genres of my past through the radio, road trip DJs, internet playlists; I am reminded through the artists' emotions, darkest secrets, fears and passions that I have lived and am living a beautiful life. I am a woman of many tunes and music gives an extra beat or two to my heart. It often allows me to laugh at the memories of dating, dancing, good times with friends. It creates a space for me to cry whilst reminiscing over lost love, floating souls and the upbringing of buried emotions. It fires up my hormones and creates spontaneous rage of frustrations and weaknesses that move me closer to serenity. It reminds me to be present, to flutter with the wind, to dance with the vibration of my heart. Music has a way of bringing me to the reality of life. It offers an invitation of reflection and idealism. The many genres I enjoy are classical, hard rock, gospel, bluegrass, country, soft, hip hop, kirtan, funkadelic, trap, and any other genre with a beat that hasn't yet been defined. Each one brings me to a different awareness, a different chapter of my life.My favorite genres are classical, country, rock and roll and kirtan. Classical music brings a soothing platform to reflect, to think, to create and study. Country takes me back to my roots in the rolling hills of Western Maryland. Hard Rock and Heavy Metal gets me moving. It validates the dancing demons in my head, thrashing back and forth to screams of the electric guitar. It gives me the drive to shoot, run, conquer and thrive.
The moral of my musical career is that it takes me back to the 1st vibration, that of the heart. It speaks to me, justifies I am not alone in this world, and allows me to learn who these artists really are. It is education, freedom, satisfaction and motivation!
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